 Family members can pretend to love you but secretly hate your guts. As a child of God, you felt a duty of love for them and did everything to help them.
You will be hated by all for My name’s sake. But he who endures to the end will be saved. Jesus. Matthew 10:22 I had a sister who targeted me when I was fourteen. She would ask me over to her house and I would do her chores and mind her children. I loved it! I thought she loved me, so I backed her to strangers and stood before her enemies through my teen years and beyond. She never did that for me. Eventually, I moved away. She owed a drug debt and told her dealer I would have sex with him to pay for it; to buy her time to leave the area and not pay her bill. The first I knew of this was when I came home one day. There was a threatening message from a stranger on my answering machine saying he was coming to rape me to pay her debt. I was a young widow with a small child at the time and terrified. I called the police and they made sure I was not contacted again. I felt sorry for her and forgave her because I thought she loved me but was too broken to handle life with dignity. I would drive long distances to visit her but she never visited me. She would promise to come over so I would buy extra nice food and wait with the door open but she always had an excuse. There was a guy she used to root that had a crush on me. He lived far away and she told him he could have sex with me if he came to her place. He had sex with her and must have asked where I was. The first I knew of this was apparently ‘the morning after’. She called me and he took the phone off her. He realized he had been conned and told me he should never have gone there. When I became homeless she refused to let me stay with her. She still asked me to visit her and I did. She called me to say she was going overseas and didn’t trust her neighbours so she said my carer son and I could stay at her unit while she was gone. She rushed out the door as we arrived. Just after she left she rang me and asked me to look in her cupboard for her purse. I did not want to enter her room and felt foreboding. How could she be on the way to the airport with no money or identification? Was she setting me up? Her place was filthy. I sent my son to the shops to buy cleaning supplies for her. I bought her a new baking dish as hers was thick with grime. She came back after a few days with no warning and told us to leave immediately. It was late in the afternoon and I was doing washing at the time. My back was aching from doing her housework and I told her I could not leave at that time, I had to rest my back. I would leave in the morning. She began to harass me to spend the night in her bed, with her. She said the other sisters slept with her, so why wouldn’t I? I got the cold chill big time and repeatedly told her no. I slept on my pillows on her living room floor with my son close by as I had done since arrival. She rang her daughter and of course I just tuned out. My son was listening though and told me she was saying I stole her purse and refused to leave. Then she showed my son pornography and told him she gave sexual favours for money. Reeling with disbelief, disgust and fury, it all became clear. This thing hated me. The demon was now clearly visible and I never had to see it again. Do not give what is holy to dogs; nor cast your pearls before swine, lest they trample them under their feet, and turn and tear you in pieces. Jesus. Matthew 7:6 I always blamed the old girl for my sister appearing to be broken and needing me to do the hard work for her; but no, she was just using me. It never loved me and I was only clinging to an illusion of having a relative who cared. The first duty of love is to your Father in Heaven who created your divine spirit. Then, love and nurture your goodness as you grow in discernment through experience. You will connect with pure hearted humans, worthy of Heaven, for real and eternal love. Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength. The second is this: Love your neighbour as yourself. No other commandment is greater than these. Jesus. Mark 12:30-31 Your Sister in Spirit Paula New Earth Community https://www.goldenraytwinflameearthangel.com Divine Love Twin Flames https://www.goldenraytwinflameearthangel.com/divine-love-twin-flames.html God, Me and the Mango Tree https://www.goldenraytwinflameearthangel.com/about-me.html Golden Ray Light blog https://www.goldenraytwinflameearthangel.com/golden-ray-light YouTube channel https://www.youtube.com/c/goldenraytwinflameearthangel Contact me [email protected] Comments are closed.
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